31st March

Spent the day measuring up and rejecting IKEA designs for 3 rooms, that may or may not have included grand designs of plush velvet boxed seating, dark sideboards and luxe lighting.  This doesn't mean I will do this, but daydreaming and planning has always been a big part of my life and keeping my brain busy.

It kept me busy for the whole day except for the part of the day where I clipped the hedges.

I haven't clipped the hedges in years, in fact, the garden has been pretty shit all-in-all since it got away from us during the first renovation, which I think was 7yrs ago now.  I had to work harder and longer to pay for home renovation loan and mortgage and we don't have groundstaff, or any staff.  Who has staff?  I read about people with cleaners and people that do things for them and I feel like im from another planet.  Sometimes I imagine having staff and then I wonder if I would resent the staff because I have to clean/tidy up for the staff and the staff are making me have to look presentable/leave the house until they are done.  etc.

I quite like hiding out at home.

Anyway, AB bought an electric hedge trimmer a couple of years ago, and this became his job as I don't do whizzy-electric-chopper-sword things.  I go clip clip clip with my manual snippers.

I don't know if it's the wielder or the tool but the job used to get done, despite looking a bit hacked.  I never complained because it was that, or nothing.

I now have sore arm muscles and blisters on my hands.  It was a beautiful day.  Also did some weeding.  Some of the 7yr old weeds were so big we forgot they were weeds, and pulling some weeds out I discovered plants I forgot about. 

I've been quite flat today and introspective.  I scroll the socials and my face doesn't change - I don't feel anything for the singing or the teddies or the memes, I just feel tired and blank.

I'm looking forward to whatever is on tele tonight and scrolling SBS for a new World Movie that will learn me something or make me feel.

Picture:  some garden-y type pics from around the home.